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This morning i awoke to my cell going off at 7 in the morning, Julia my dear friend was starting labor and jesse her husband was going to a physical test for becoming a police officer. her contractions were slow and spaced between but she wanted me to come. I was so honored. this morning I massaged her and rubbed her wrist and arm and she calmed down and soon fell asleep. her contractions went from 8 minutes in between to 20 minutes. I am Bella's God Mother it is amazing, and today she asked me to be there at the Labor.

So many things have occured these months. I am listening to Iron and Wine. I am trying to walk.
And i find the Lord saying Yes, where I turn down paths.

Work has been really hard, i have been doing ok, but really pushing it.
I don't like the person I become sometimes, with Molly so worn and frayed. I was really anxious in the beginning of the week, my heart racing at night. I had to take Gabba at night on monday and tuesday to bring down my panic me.

but later in the week got better, i had some cool stuff happen, and i felt happy towards the end of week. and i thought, Wow: I haven't been happy in so long. As i felt myself get excited one morning.

I am waiting for Julia's call to go to hospital, it could be tonight or tomorrow.

There are many things i'm deciding too. a lovely possibility of going back to school






Jesus Are you inside me?