Forgiving in my Driveway

I posted a post about a month ago about how I wanted to forgive, and there my Ex K was across the Street, right there in front of my house, but I didn't want to cross the street. I wanted to be in a safe place, I wanted to be in my territory.

Well then today my Roomate's Car broke down, her radiator blasted, and there was mobile mechanic right there and he offered her to come and help. She called me "Girl, you won't believe this but Kido is here in the driveway fixing my car."

And so there we go, the LORD was ready and I was ready to forgive. This time he brought him right in my driveway.
I came home, Alice and I (she of course also freaked out b/c of her unfolding) we prayed we peereed out the Laundry room into the Driveway, not believing he was right there.

Then I went right out back and he was digging down in Tibi's Car. Tibi was on a lounge chair. Said Hi, he was buried under trunk. I gave Tibi a high Five. There was a slow nod, and like OK. Then as he was going to go get the right size cap, I said I want to talk to you and we went by his van. I said "I've been wanting to tell you, I forgive you. For everything you did and what happened" And he listened. And he said "Wow, that has really been a weight on me for the last years. I"ve been carrying that around"

Wow, that my unforgiveness was bearing on him. And we talked a bit, he told me how he changed how he's still clean and all, I heard that and took it with some grain, knowing even a bit from the last couple years through what happened with my friend. But I wanted to hear him, and hear him and his pride for being clean. Then I told him I found God. And the Grace I"ve experienced, and how recently I knew that after all the hard stuff that went down recently, and then what dramatic deliverence, and mostly for the Grace i've received, then how could i not forgive him. HOw I wanted to forgive him.
And I mentioned J. He said "Of course you neecd to find your spiritual thing thats so important" and that is what i almost always hear. So I said something about "Yes and for me the Jesus thing, is like when I"m so weak and so messed up, the cool thing about J is that he meets me where I"m at." That was the bit I told. It felt acquard but also OK.
Then shortly after we said "ok, bye" and I went back in.
I saw Hannah, it was her birthday we had Salad at the Pizza place, then I came back, I felt light in my back. I didn't feel freaked out or scarred. I do feel a little stimulated....but I feel even a little bit of "whatever" like its no big deal.