If it is glowing

I really like how my Godma put it, how to decipher if something is right or wrong for you, of how to know what is "good" to do for yrself. (I still am reluctant to get so obsessed with this "sin" thing, it is not how I like to view things anyway and it feels icky to me. I'm really not concentrating on these kinds of statements. I think that God does pay attention, but I think that God is smarter than having a simple set of evils for humankind, like I believe he will stir-up a life for you that really is made to teach you and well, i believe He knows your language, so he will give you stuff, people, relationships that you are akin to. I'm not down with people trying to Script for God some set of rules. like Christians who do not touch alcohol, if you don't want to drink anything that would poision you than I suggest giving up coffee also, Coffee if drunk to much will shut down your little adrenals. If you write off one thing, alcohol, than you must write off coffee too). so there.

But I do believe in listening to what God wants you be doing. And to tell what is good or not good for You, I think one can sense by if it is glowing, how you can just sense that somethings glow and somethings don't. More and more I'm sensing that, I'll be in a place, and its just not glowing. Objects literally seem to just sit there, as objects. The first time I went under, the first time on March 13th, when the light poured into me, when the spring came up in me and before I knew it it was all through me, and it was this amazing total condition, well when I opened my eyes at the end of the service, I was stunned because everything was glowing, there was Camille and the Contessa in front of me, and their bodies, their beings just jumped out, were so crisp, lined with this stunning definition. and everything had this light. and when i go under, still, these days, with some sincere and long prayer, and i open my eyes, everything gets that glow on.