baptism

Death and rebirth, and watching Cliff get baptized yesterday, his last day before he leaves for the Navy.
Crying and crying in the second row. so happy and amazed and the whole focus was me, it was astounding. And even though it was an aquard thing Dan said "so then Molly dumped you..." Cliff looked over at me and shot me this big piercing look of love with a smile. He said my name "Molly Farrell"
and we had the best goodbye as i prayed for, went upstairs to use the bathroom and he was up there with Lee. Joann ducked in the bathroom behind me and Lee closed his office door behind Cliff and we ran to each other and held each other. He held me as he does in the best way and we just swayed there for a sec.
He buttoned my white shirt all tenderly like he does. I had my arms around his waist and he looked down at me and we gave each other the best hug.
and it was us again for a second, "how was it Cliff? was it good?"
"yes, it was."
and the sweetest moment with joann in the bathroom corridor, she had tears in her eyes too. "you look so changed, everytime I see you! youre posture keeps changing." she banged her fist in the air and we held this yes between us. Cliff nodding and gentle in his space.
and a couple more goodbyes kinda aquard with his new girlfriend and friends and like where do i put myself.
made sweet quick hugs, all lighthearted in the movement "Be good!" He said to me "I love you." like a friend that won't go away, like that's it, so very light.