the lake

Jesus You are Lover. You are such a great lover.

To think you brought me to GreenLake, the Epic and emmense and glorious lake. I have never seen such a beautiful thing. I can't take my eyes off it when I go down, and it is just a block a way, and I can't turn away, like what people do at the ocean. Me I never could get into the ocean not sure why, I think it was too chaotic or cold or unpredicatable or clashing and turning over. But this lake is still. oh my god the L*Rd actually

You lead me beside quiet waters.

You restoreth my soul

doing this. a sanctuary. the best park i could dream of i could dream of. Walking around it and so many people of all nationalities and ages and strollers and rollerbladers and the water so still so still so still and dancing too light shimmering sparkling "how did I get here?" in my head, out of my wonder. and so much grass and trees. like my favorite park in Santa cruz where i would go and sit somedays even leave work in panic and walk accross the bridge, and the ducks were there. The ducks like my grammpa took me as a little thing and we'd feed the ducks. so ducks make me feel safe and like Santa Venetia and time with my grampa. So ducks are at this big open park by the lake and grass and big generous trees.

And I said to myself "this is what Heaven is like" and felt for the second time ever, ok the third to be specific, a real "kingdom of heaven is near" and touching of heavenly realm into earth. I could just feel it, Wow God Nature like this wonderful is going to be heaven, and heaven might just be here " a new heaven and a new earth" and the idea of god coming down here and garden restored. Well in this lake, by this lake I could feel Wow Nature is going to be in heaven, it's going to feel this good, it's going to feel so good. And how being by such a majesty thing makes reveals him. I don't think I've ever been taken like this.

This morning on my heart was Lord you are lover. You are lover.