firmament

i am pondering how the mighty God has given me a whole new firmament to be alive in.

as you know, i am a new believer. I digress: back in the day when i upheld all kinds of "gods" mysterious, and elaborate the like, i used to be able to insert myself on God, on these "beings" (cascading from hinduism and the hokey goddess of earth) As I declared them and knew them, I was able to control them, to pinpoint them, to pin them down. in my poems i pinned them. i could chase them with my wild metaphors and i put them in all kinds of situations to watch them pan out. i wore them out. with my obtuse clues. the endless similies! in fact, my poems outweighed them. my poems became greater than them greater than god. My gosh, my poems one upped them!
But that can be no God. This God. the God who created me, i can't contain. I cannot wear out. my poems can hardly impress. And the weirdest thing for me, for the first time ever, i can't find a metaphor for God, For Christ. b/c there's no way i could reduce christ. and yep, he's beyond.

Now with Christ my whole firmamament has changed.
No longer is God an entitity to entertain me. I can no longer toss God up like pancakes with my cleverish mouth and words.
The mighty God is so stubborn! I adore Him for it. i've been working on this poem with the working title "The immovable God" about my frustration as a poet who can no longer do as I please with the God of my imagination. The Good news is that God blows my mind.
He's given me a new firmament, to yank Mr. Ariel's lovely choice of wording. i hope he's glad for my cut-and-paste. because i really think this word works. . ..
i just peered at firmament in my thesaurus. --giving me a much different approach then i fathomed. calling it the vault of heaven, starry cope. sky. i think of it more as the grounds one walks on. the entire field. i feel like i'm walking in a new place, in this field that goes on and on forever. I've gained a place that is forever. and it's happening now! it touches me all the time. it's not local! it's familiar! it's just good.