i didn't think it could get worse

i CAN'T tell you how horrible all this is. i am being persecuted by my dad's family. my stepmom called me screaming "you're disgusting! You're disgusting!" My father and them have been talking about me, talking about what happened with everyone but me. Talking to the man, my inlaw thatcher, who i believe raped me. My daad finally calls me "why didn't you call me before?" he says, "i wanted to get all the facts before." as if i'm a stranger, as if i'm the perpetrator.
you see, i was trying to protect myself, take care of myself, with the aftermath of last week. I might have been raped, and unfortunately it will always be unknown. I got intoxicated to the point of blacking out. and yes, this is awful, but i have admitted my wrong for this part. so to continue. . . . I saw many red flags the next day and have been experiencing discomfort physically. this man undressed me! he looked down when i asked him if he did something to me, but it's true that i had thrown up on my clothes. so he is my inlaw and my family is defending him and appalled at me. and i can understand disagreement witht the issue at hand, but i can't understand the assalt after assalt on me, me. for just investigating.
I have taken partial responsibility, it is not fair to put all responsibility on me.
i think my father truly hates me. he is talking sh*t about me, screaming at my mother about my allergy to wheat and dairy and how dare I misconvenience everyone. which i don't. i bring my own soy milk.
the worse part is the long emial i wrote him, defending myself and the choices i made when i was concerned, and even getting into all the details of what happened and how my body felt, and all this. well he showed both his receptionists! he showed them! he said "i wanted to see what they thought, im not a woman." b/c he is against me, how dare he, what did he think, that was confidential. this is horrible