Seamless on January 1st

Yesterday was incredible. And it came after such turbulence.
I fasted last week for 3 days, I was asking God a Question. on getting to Gilgal. Trusting God will do it, needing to know how. What am I to do God? was my question on that grieving past. to enter his Completion. So in other words The Fast was my way of really bugging God. of putting all this to God, of not shoving it away anymore. I should say that I've put this to God all along, but this time, I did so also with my body. I will fill you in soon about this

But for now I should say that I had a gorgeous day yesterday, On New Year's. With my long best friends, Sarah and Sumayya. And everything finallly fit, and went along so smoothly. And after all the hecticness of the New Year's Peak, How flat and hard my heart fell, I was so lonely, and the offness, the harshness, with one friend leaving and my other friend and I strangely dettached and overwhelmed in packed Clouds. And me not caring. Everything feeling hideous.
But yesterday the First, everything seemed to return. From the natural talk I had with my sister, to the car drive back to Marin with Sumayya on the coast listening to Under the Bridge and Talking Head and Richie Haven, Bjork, and everything made us feel alright and took us back. Everything opening for us. The Best Omelette at Walnut Cafe. The two of us gasped after our first bite, "O my gosh, Ican't believe this" or something along those lines Sumayya muttered under her breath after her first taste and those were the last words we said. Seeing the BlueGrass Family out again and barefoot, mandolyn and Early American Folk that makes me feel like I'm riding on a train, or makes me want to take the turn.
Everything was just perfect, arriving at Sarah's and the three of us Going out together charmed and delighted by each other. Glad in each other's company. And the coast I hadn't driven for so long was all sun and arriving.