Jordan Street, God means deliverance

God put it right there in front of me. God saying, "Yes Molly, really, I am giving this to you, I am giving you what you asked for." I had been asking God, pleading with God, saying God, God! Please bring me through the Jordan.

( I started this plea on December 29th. I woke up nighmarish. the ick was there,,,, again, yeasty and tangly around me. The worry and the shadow.......... the shadow from the dismantling from 2003 from the sin, ugh....and so on!)

(And I've known God wants me healed. So no way was I taking this anymore! God calls us to be free and free indeed. God knows how to remove this stuff.......and I was learning that maybe it wasn't the stuff, the ick, or shadow, but the place. Maybe it is the place where I am. like there is a way to be held in an oppressive place, where your firmament is always hostage to that past, or fear of the past.......and i was beginning to see since this fast and the revealing that I myself was in a new place. And as I worship Him feeling heaven unlocked and available right there before me). But this all is a big parenthesis!

I was asking God to cut in front of me, as He cut in front of his children, the people of Israel, when the Ark of the Covenant cut before them and they crossed the Jordan. The Floodwaters were held back. They hurried across. (I love Old Testament understatements). And as they were making their way, and God told 12 of them to stop there and pick-up stones from the middle of the Jordan. to pick up the stones and carry them across. And when you make it to the shore of Gilgal, you put the stones upright there. To put them there as remembrance. And when your children ask you "What do those stones mean?" You shall tell them that "Those are the stones from when the Lord your God cut in front of you and held back the water of the Jordan and you were delivered."

He wanted them to take the stones from the middle of that death or die cross over. from where they were crossing over. from where they had to run, to rush across, pedal-to-the-metal, from the middle of the danger-zone, from the final plunge. From where the Lord cut in front of them.

This is the spot that brought them to Gilgal, which again, means Full-Circle, where the bible tells us that they stayed and were healed and God was with them and they were healed. This is where they finally made it, made it to their promised land.

And I had been praying to get to my Gilgal, to make it through the Jordan. To be fully cutoff from the scarriness and threatening stuff of before. And where did I forgive? Where did I leave it all behind. Jordan Street.

God delivered me. God is telling me, too, I delivered you. God is making it known. God has marked me, and I set my stone there, I left my stone there, this time, turned upright, I took the stone from the trama, and turned it up as a memorial to the Lord my God. I said "I forgive you for the Lies." and my past was transformed. The stone was set upright, and this time it was the Lord's. Now it is not a heavy thing, or burden, or acquard oppressive thing. It is a stone that is turned upright, that commemmorates the Lord my God. It is a memorial. I have put the Lord my God there. I have made it his place. I left the stone there, and now I call that street Jordan (the 1-way street where you have to wrap around--get all the way to the other side, in order to get onto it, to find the last parking space), this is the street, Jordan Street, where God delivered me.