Miss Molly myself

I have missed my little blog and my routine of writing.

I did this coarse in San Francisco with my sister, that she had done and raved about. it was all about communication and pleasure and honing in on what you want, and realizing what your "trip" is and being OK with it, not trying to change that.
I learned I have this worry trip. I have learned how to right away hear that little girl in me, and see myself freaked out, and know that i'm not to blame when i feel all is loss and all is my fault.

I have learned so so much about communication.

I was worried that it was going to be "new age" when I went, but I would say that it wasn't....but on some levels some of their postures on god and who we are didn't resonate with me.


but what the coarse did was give me this new freedom, and for male/female advocates they were very much fans of what i would say is more a biblical approach of Men stepping into their masculine and Women stepping into their feminine.
for men to step into their power and women to step into their desire.

i left the coarse feeling so excited about being ok with what i want, and that my desires/wantss are good, and I can trust them....
and so excited to go for what i want. i stepped out of the heaviness of this whole last couple of months. into this yes, being eager and excited about finding someone who wants to give me what i want, of someone that fulfills these things i like....


it like took me into this whole new dazzle place.


I was testing out continuing the coaching (phone conferences) with this center. and man, Oswald (my utmost for his highest) totally slammed me last night. i know what i need to do. i need to be obedient. in this case, I think even on a financial level I can't keep doing the calls, and it's just not quite my place. learning about living in my means and learning on just even on the steps for me.

it's so weird, i walk a line , we all walk a line of that way that God consecrates for us some things and not other things. and maybe it's ok for most to be doing most things, but that god sets us apart to be "peculiar people" like that Mute Math reggae vibe song, or like deuteronomy says. and some lands are not consecrated for me.

i had been feeling very indecisive about it.. very not sure, which i'm learning more and more is a sign that I shouldn't do something. i was going after information. but i'm getting more and more into looking for the big Yes and big wings GO from the lord and the the land and the situation.

so i know what to do about continuing with the program. but i'm still stoked that i did it. i'm still coming down off it.