my attic open up

My period is here,
(all you Misters or scardees who don't want to hear of the whoaman's whoa click away.
My period. I'm so happy for my (.) b/c The last period I got was June, yes that's June 04' well there was one false bleed in January due to a fast I was doing that seemed to kick in not just my Liver but my Uterus. It's amazing, it feels so amazing. It is like, finding a long lost friend, like walking through a very familiar park. It feels so good. my v is buzzing.
It is like putting your hand in a jar of dried rice and feeling that all-over sensation, that all-over-yes, with your hand covered on all sides by these rice pieces and you go in-and-out of feeling them one by one or feeling them all covering your hand. And you can dig your hand deeper and back but everywhere is satisfying.
It is like there was some closed-up attic, and now a window has open, and the sun is breaking in and it's so intense because the sun hasn't been there for awhile. And the atmosphere in the attic is stirring, the dust flying up, and you're coughing, but the sun drives in, like it was always meant to be there. The sun pours-in in this tangible way. The sun is heavy and falling like a continuous sheet, it's like a pedal, its pressing on you.
It is like the front of a ship, (what is that called?), the tip, that first cuts into the water. and the boat is going with a steady cadence, the water is meeting it so nicely and lapping by and the tip is the first to meet it.
It is coming up from a heavy and holding sea, it breaks up over the water like someone who has been trying to come up for air. and then all of a sudden they gasp. emerging from somewhere clenched and static.
My body down there feels like it is on to something, it feels like it is taking in. (that is what really is striking me, not the sensation of dropping or shedding, but that my body down there is taking in).
What I am noticing now is there is this whole experience, it is beyond a feeling or effect, it is a whole being taking place. My uterus is of its own doing right now.
In someways it is like Jesus (truly, though this sounds bizarre) like the Spirit. becuase i'm learning that Jesus isn't an essence or feeling, when the Spirit comes it is seperate than you but is totally whole and totally aaah to be in it and when it comes it is totally there, not just in a place, but this blanket covering the everywhere.
And my period right now is like this in that it is seperate but of me, it is rolling ou in its own way, and i'm at the top of it and oh so high and unbinding.