She landed it

I did it, I landed it. I got the job! At the Metro in Sales, getting clients to advertise, designing the concept and layout of their ad, working with them to find out what they want. I feel so so good today, I woke up with my heart sparkling. I walked to work, I feel completely relaxed and taken care of. I feel hopeful. I feel set. I feel God so closely almost as though He is kissing me, i feel this unveiling. This huge sweet good yes safe on bless bringing mine canness tucked sealed takenfor perfect unsunk back place. I feel like until now i've been swimming in this goo of discomort and panic. like yeast like jesus said, that icky you can't put your finger on but oh it spreads, when things aren't aligned, when there's something foul deep in the trunk. when the tree is bad. knock down the figs.
i feel this sweetness, and gentleness inside. like this place i'm back in myself. easy on myself and gentle and just me. no more trying and pushing it and showing up for a workplace where somehow under it I was so valued and discounted and being used.
it's like i'm out of this paste of darkness. and my own trying to conquer it and movve it around and handle it was just not working, it was not tameable, and it was too much for me to deal with, and it was never mine to begin with. this convincing that i'm really worthy of bigger pay, or convincing that i'm doing an outstanding job and managing so much.

Now ive got this feeling of bread, of doughy bread rising that's mine and that is and is free and is warm.

no more underscore.

I've landed it.