Of course

Of course this dude has not called, though i called him up, feeling high and mighty and brave this afternoon, and lighthearted even, i guess i felt capable. so i called, he called back on his way home from work, said he'd call me up tonight. so he hasn't and i had the feeling he wouldn't. . . and why do i feel so lame? i don't care, i'm pissed, and i don't like being on hold, and maybe i'm taking things much too hard, but that's my experience and gut. this is all a devicive player thing and i 'm over it. i don't like being on hold. am i comprimising myself? or am i just psycho?